Crave the Motivation of 2012

Growing one small step at a time has rung my bell this year.  2012 was a year in my life I am truly grateful of having the opportunity, the grace, and patience, strength, and courage, to keep working hard each and every day.  Today is all I have.  Today is a blessing.  I am grateful of those in my life.

This year saw my health turn up and down.  The Chambersburg half marathon saw my fastest 1:22:10 PR to date. 

My spirit was crushed during and after the 116^th Boston Death March. As motivation turned to agonizing reality, spirit crushed I reached to do what I was taught.  I put effort into to other things: my land in PA was one.  I planted 40+ trees, cleared brush and mowed the field.  I stacked the stones, cleared the logs and branches, and stained the shed with Christa.  I’ve tried hard to help others, and ventured out of my comfort zone.  Picking up some others in the pits to help them have been a joy and a gift of life. 

I spent some time with family, visiting my cousins in North Carolina.  What a fun trip.

Church is so filling and rewarding helping out youth and giving back.  Not taking, as I always seemed to know best.  Giving is a grand gift, and a joy.  Blessings flow abundant.

Reaching the Summit of Mount Rainier, the Columbia Crest at 14,410’ above sea level (some 2.7 miles vertical) with Casey on August 31^st was a test of every ounce of strength, mental, physical, spiritual, 4^th dimension; all I could summon.  I loved the challenge.  I hated the pain.  I did it.  I am not sure what it means; maybe a bit stupider, bolder, and tougher – still the crazy I know, yet so much less insane. 

Canada and couch surfing with Christa was new and exciting and something I had never dreamed.  The Pacific Northwest is awe inspiring.

Goooo  O  R  I  O  L  E  S  !!!

Work has prospered.  I have thoroughly enjoyed my job in the past year.  I have found peace and purpose.  Life is a joy.  God wants me to work, and wants me to show up every day.  I have begun to take the Sabbath a bit holier.  No more intentional “work” on Sundays.  It’s very simple J  Simple, and the truth, will set me free.

Why not tackle a 50-miler?  I can do it, just plan the work, and work the plan.  It’s simple, nothing to it: just go run 50 miles, and then I’m done.  Well, Tussey Mountainback USATF National 50-mile Championship yielded me 12^th place overall in my first crack at the race distance.  Maybe I have some more digging to do.  Nostalgic is an understatement of how that felt.  Without emotion; Grey: Blithe.  Just what does it all mean, Bazzle?

Hunting is freaking fun!  Cold, tiring, and also serene and peaceful, this task is so much more fruitful when I am focused.  Two 8-points and one button have been harvested this 2012 year.  What a joy.  What a yummy freezer.

It’s time to get fit again.  Back to the training table Galloway!  Name that tune?  You can’t hotdogs…

My motivators that keep pushing me forward:

·         Serenity Prayer

·         “Always Do What You Want To Do” - Irv Zablocky

·         “In order to succeed, you must know what you are doing, like what you are doing, and believe in what you are doing”  - Bill Rodgers

·         “Laugh Every Day.  Think Every Day.  Move Emotions to Tears Every Day.  Do that every day and you’ll live a full life.”  - Jimmy V

·         “Be Impeccable with your words, don’t take anything personally, don’t make assumptions, and always do your best.”  - The Four Agreements

·         Three things you can never get back – Time – Lost Opportunity – Words Spoken

·         The only thing that stands between a man and what he wants in life is often merely the will to try it and the faith to believe that it’s possible.

·         Great moments are born from great opportunities

·         DEA FAST Alpha, Chad L. Michael.  February 22, 1979 – October 26, 2009.  RIP

·         “I believe that any hero does what they are asked to  do, regardless of the consequences.”  Army Master Sgt., Sean M. Thomas.  33 years young on March 27, 2007.  RIP

       ·         Thoughts, Treasure, Time, Touch

·         “Absolute Honesty, Absolute Purity, Absolute Unselfishness, Absolute Love” – The 4 Absolutes

·         Lord’s Prayer

“And you set goals and work to achieve them, not because the goals are intrinsically important, but because they keep you on task and pushing toward greater excellence.  And in this excellence is joy:  the unparalleled feeling of engaging in a difficult task and having the skill to accomplish it.”  - Jonathan Beverly, Editor-in-Chief, Running Times Magazine

I can’t wait for the joy of the present; the right now; the serenity of now.  What a grand year.  Thank you for being part of it.

Memento Mori Carpe Diem

2010 started very bumpy, to say the least. I had an awful diet, my previous hamstring/calf and shoulder injuries were chronic in the pain category. The hammy/calf wouldn't allow me to run with full stride, good form, and without serious discomfort & hurt. Mentally I was out of it. Spiritually I was bankrupt. Physically I wasn't treating my body well. Travel had me beaten up. I wasn't sleeping. I was depressed, and ugly inside and out. I was in a dark lonely place with emotional apathy. Life was totally predictable, how I'd feel (miserable), scared, full of fear, anxiety, hurt, and lonliness.

To avoid a long story, I was simply touched by an angel; given another chance.

My diet bounced back from the help of Melissa, and my injuries became manageable through PT with Denise. Church and support groups gave me a resurgance of my mental and spiritual maladies. Physically I was improving 1 day at a time. I began to show signs of hope and recovery, and the ugly began having less space within as the good & hopeful took residence once again. My fitness began to improve with hard work. Work situations changed and I didn't have to travel any longer...for at least a while. I was begining to feel rested, and well on my way to a happier lifestyle. I still did struggle, at times, but to say the least, life was getting good again.

Then work hit, and I was in Charleston SC for approximately 4 months over the late spring/majority of summer. I found new friends there, and was taking life in stride. Moving back home I struggled with life once again, but, kept on the bright path and ultimatley worked myself through the halloween season with two feet under my head, still six feet up. Thanksgiving, Christmas, and New Years were a blessing, and very fruitful with a new way of living 1 day at a time. I had had a spiritual awakening.

Sometimes, as an engineer, I need to see the numbers to show the results. Simply looking at my running, here are the stats:

2010
Total Mileage = 2,361 (Previous best over 10 years 1,439. 10-year average 905)
Total Races = 20 (not even sure what previous best was, but likely only 14)
PR 5k - 17:13
PR 5M - 29:40
PR 8M - 49:51
PR 9M - 55:52
PR 10M - 1:02:35
PR Half Marathon - 1:24:08
PR 50K - 6hr 24min
PR 100k - 14hr 11min 57sec

In all, I raced:
5k's - eight (8)
3.55M - one (1)
5M - one (1)
10k - one (1)
7M tough mudder - one (1)
9M - one (1)
10M - one (1)
Half marathon - three (3)
50-mile relay (28M) - one (1)
50k (35M) - one (1)
100k (62.8M) - one (1)

All in all I raced 230 miles, and three alone accumulated more than half. Placed 2nd or 3rd in a number of races, and took one (1) victory at the 5k. I've never run longer than 26.2 miles in my life prior to this year, and within 11 weeks I surmounted 35-mile trail race, 35-mile road training run (4hr 34min), 63-mile trail race, and 28-mile dirt road relay. I set personal best records in eight (8) different race distances ranging from the 5k to the 100k and everything in-between.

On new years day 2010 I raced a 5k in 20:41. The same exact course, exactly 365 days 0-hours later I ran 17:37 (3min 4sec faster). What a difference some hard work and focus accumulates.

I got fit, healthy, found new friendships and regained trust in those previous, a new more productive way of living, and I have learned to help others along the way. I give to my church in offerings, and have God on my side and inside each and every day. My new code of love, tolerance, and kindness toward others is a rule. As the wisest part of wisdom is kindness.

As we head back to Miami in 1 week, I will have time to reflect and give thanks. Also, to be reminded of whence I came. I will not forget the past, nor wish to shut the door on it. For this is who I am now, and all that other stuff was not of me. Miami 26.2 - let's see what a year has chissled.

Goodbye 2010, you were the best year I've even known. Your takeaway gift will be carefully handled...for in a glimpse I can throw it all away. Looking forward to the unknown grace of each day in 2011. The best is yet to come!